Well, I cannot believe that it has been almost a month since I have blogged. One, time has gone by WAY too fast and two, I am WAY too busy, with no end in sight.
I was just reading back on some of what I have written.
I am in pain right now, my right hip has kind of locked up on me and there is really no position that is comfortable for me right now. Which totally stinks. I battled with this last year and spent like 3 days in bed. It was lame. Now here I am again. In my mind I think if only I had made some changes, then my hip would not hurt so bad. It is so true that it might be nothing, but I know that my weight has added to my pain. And I really hate that. I wish (hence the title) that I could just get control of those things that seem to control me. There are not too many things in my life that I need to readjust, but there are some. And right now sitting here in pain there are some that I need to take a stand on at least 2 of them. There are some things that I wish, when even as a type that I feel a twinge, because I can't live my life in I WISH land. I have to live in RIGHT NOW land. Yes I know that I can have hopes, but there is no where where I am told I get to have expectations and then whine until the hope comes about. Nope, I am to have hope and yet still go on. However, I have seen little breaks in some of my hopes. Last night my husband brought me flowers, with out me asking,crying, hinting or anything else. He said he knew that I needed them right now. It the last ten years he has only given me flowers 3 times. And two of those times have been in the last 6 months!!! I know that might seem like something small to expect and even smaller to be so surprised when it happens, but if you knew my husband you would understand. Anyways that is my little blurb on wishing.
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