New Changes

Well, it is officially Mid June. What in the world. This year is passing me by. I hate that. I don't want time to go by and allow nothing to change. I have a desire to make changes and have them effect how I do things. I want to not be in pain all the time. I want to have energy and be positive. There is a way. I hope. Nope, I know. I just need to pull up my bootstraps and do it. I know that I say that all the time too. No bueno. I need a goal. I am just not too sure what I should do. My stupid personality doesn't allow me to stick to things. So, how do you erase things in your personality that are there for a reason. Like, why are those things there, though. I think there can be a good thing in our bad traits. I am afraid to fail. There I said it. Acceptance is the first step towards fixing things. When I fail, someone is let down. How do I let that sink in? Why should I be the cause of that? I am not sure how to let things go. This is what I am working on.